some moments are just moments.

11.21.2012


I haven't written in what feels like forever. I scratch out whatever's on the surface each night, almost subconsciously. But it's been too long since I've given myself the luxury of just sitting and writing and actually grasping my own thoughts. And even though there about forty seven other things I should probably (definitely) be doing, I'm going to put my sanity at the top of that list, and tonight, I'm just going to write.

Whenever I get an idea I scribble it down wherever I can find a piece of paper and sometimes I'll go back and read it and think to myself "I just can't go back to that moment. I can't feel what I felt when I wrote those exact words." That's the thing about being a writer, you can try as hard as you want, but sometimes there are just some moments you'll never be able to put back into words. Sometimes moments are just moments, and memories are all you'll ever have.

My beautiful friend Katie interviewed Alexis, the wordsmith behind Twelve Odd Months, and her words adhered to my heart. There are so many good experiences, so many struggles that I've been trying to make stories of, and having a good memory just isn't enough. Life happens and then they're too far away. We try to feel what we felt before. We write what we remember and we make up what we don't and in the end, all we have is this puzzle with all the wrong pieces forced into all the wrong spots. 

Some moments are just moments and that's all they were ever meant to be. I'm playing the piano more often. I have a new job. It's Winter now. My grandparents made my week. An application went in the mail. I met someone at my favourite coffee shop and got to tell them something I never had the chance to before. There's a million little stories. A million little reasons, morals, uncertainties, seconds of bravery, laugh lines, tears that coexist with these moments. But some moments and just moments. And sometimes, we let them be. 

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Some writing from last week.

28 comments:

  1. love your words here abbey. this is life. <3

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  2. "We write what we remember and we make up what we don't and in the end, all we have is this puzzle with all the wrong pieces forced into all the wrong spots."

    Yes. Just yes. You're incredible Abbey, and your photos are incredible too.

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  3. iPhone -- JELLY.
    Shots -- Also jelly of the awesome-ness!

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  4. Oh my, you have no idea how much I've subconsciously been thinking this.....It's crazy. This is so amazing...I don't think I've ever read something quite like this. =)

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  5. I've been thinking about this so much lately. Amen, amen, amen... let the moments be moments, slipping slowly through your soul, without the frantic snatching of a camera or a pen, and let them be softened by the mind until they're only memories...

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  6. this is so beautiful, Abbey. sometimes even those feelings can't be put to pen and paper, but you described these feelings perfectly. and these pictures are gorgeous. xx

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  7. So much truth in this post. You're so good with words.

    Blessings!

    -Madi

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  8. basically, this resonates with my heart so much. you are my favourite. and I love this.

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  9. i know how that feels! sometimes i have a feeling and the next moment when i try to turn it into words it's been too long.

    i'm curious to know who you met at this coffee shop.

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  10. Because some moments will always be perfect in their beautiful imperfections, right? I really love this post- I am going to print it out later so I can read it over and over again when I need to remember this is what life is all about.
    And that last picture is quite awesome.
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  11. Some moments are just moments. And when we try to write about them, it doesn't work, because those moments are just moments, and that's okay.

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  12. These words are so beautiful and true.

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  13. these are like my thoughts but i cant write it. you wrote my emotions. love it.

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  14. so perfect. so beautiful. so true. xox

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  15. I don't even know how to describe how this dug down a little inside me a touched my heart, but it did. it was beautiful. you're amazing, abbey dear.

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  16. Your writing always makes me ache in the right ways. It's quite beautiful. And i agree. Aometimes i sit down to jorunal something and I just can't. It's just a moment. nothing more.

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  17. don't even know how to perfectly articulate what I felt as I read your piece. it was just perfect. it said everything.

    and your pictures. WOAH. just sat there soaking in every one of them.

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  18. But some moments and just moments. And sometimes, we let them be. Your words are going to resonate in my soul for a while. You are a beautiful writer. xx

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  19. that last photo is just STUNNING.

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  20. lovely to read your thoughts, i adore that 3rd photo x

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  21. this may have made me tear a little ;) Incredible.

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  22. this may have made me tear a little ;) Incredible.

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